I treated this a lot like a diary entry. I’m surprised I remembered to keep track of my days as much as I did, but there were some things I needed to track down via reading back on texts I’ve sent to my friends and family.
Saturday, 21
9:30 AM- Alarm. I get up and sit for a while. I wash my face and do my skincare.
10:00 AM- I make my tea and some breakfast. Today I decide to eat some leftover pasta. One day my body won’t be able to take cheesy pasta at 10 am. But today is not the day
11:00 AM- Sometime between 10 and now I have finished eating and have randomly decided to clean my room. I want a clean space to do homework.
11:30 AM- I’m done cleaning, my desk is clear. My laptop is dead. I wait for it to charge and meanwhile I do some daily tasks in my video game.
11:45 AM- My laptop is charged enough to boot and my game tasks are done. I start some homework.
11:45 AM – I’m researching for my Monday history class. I have a headache behind my eyes. I close my eyes.
1:00 PM- Rise and shine. I see Jason responded to my email regarding my sketches for his assignment. I take a look and edit them according to his recommendations. This exchange happens a couple more times.
1:45 PM- I make lunch.
2:30 PM- I clean up after my lunch. I put some clothes on for my job. I think about how I hate my job. To cope, I sit on my phone for a bit.
3:00 PM- I start driving to my job. What’s supposed to be a 15 minute commute always somehow takes around 25. This area always has those Porsche SUVs. I never understood why you would get a porsche and decide on an SUV. I think about this as I drive
3:30 PM- I clock in around 3:32. I start my shift.
9:00 PM- My manager lets me off early since we have an extra person. Awesome, because my headache never went away. I look forward to getting home
9:20 PM- I’m home and run to the shower.
9:45 PM- I’ve showered and done my skincare. I think about how I really got nothing done that day. I think about how I hate my job. My head hurts. I make a peanut butter and banana sandwich and some tea.
10:00 PM- I’m eating my snack and drinking my tea. This is a typical weekend night for me after I work. A snack and some tea. And then I go to bed.
10:30 PM- I probably fell asleep around this time.
Sunday, 22
8:00 AM- Thanks to my early bedtime the night before, I am up at a reasonable hour. I get up and wash my face. I put some clothes on that aren’t my pajamas.
8:30 AM- I make a smoothie. I chug that shit down. I do a light cleaning of my room so that I can sit down and do some homework.
9:00 AM- I do my daily tasks in my video game.
9:15 AM- Homework. I finish my research for Gabriel’s class. I see Jason has given me the ok to start illustrator. I go through and watch some of his tutorials as I create my designs to remind myself of what tools I might need to use.
*did not keep track*
I finished 2 illustrations. I did some scrolling on tiktok.
12:00 PM- Lunch time (again). I make dumpling soup with trader joes chicken postickers. It’s pretty good; I threw in onions, carrots, green onions, tsuyu, tofu. I have a small helping of rice. It tastes like home.
12:30 PM- I put the rest in tupperware for later or tomorrow. I decided to watch an episode of the Boondocks. I love this show.
1:00 PM- I work on “calm” and “excited” for Jason’s class. I’m losing my mind trying to make sure that all the lines on my designs are the same distance from the dot. I spend way too much aligning.
2:30 PM- Another snack, and changing before work.
3:00 PM- I leave for work. Same commute
3:30 PM- Not sure when I clocked in but it was around this time
8:45 PM- On sundays I typically get off early, since the restaurant closes at 8:15. This is nice especially because this shift was terrible. I contemplate quitting on the spot. I feel awful and I’m so tired. I want to cry
10:30 PM- After showering, some homework, some food and tea, I’m in bed. Goodnight
Monday, 23
4:24 AM- I wake up with heart palpitations. I struggle to fall back asleep. I stand on the balcony for a while and look at the sky. It’s cold and when I go back in bed the warmth helps me fall asleep again.
I’m in a half asleep uncomfortable stupor until then and :
7:00 AM- I’m fully awake and I accept that I won’t be falling asleep again. My heart is beating too fast and I can’t take full breaths. I wonder if I would be able to make it to school. I put headphones in and listen to breathing guides to help myself calm down. I do this for a long time.
9:30 AM- text Gabriel that I won’t be making it to class.
I’m not sure what I did for most of this day. I was in a weird dissociative state. Hours seemed to pass without me realizing it.
8:00 PM- (according to some texts I sent to my classmates), I’m all done with my illustrator designs. I spend about an hour trying to figure out the formatting for submission. I enlist help from Jenny.
9:00 (or something like that)- my assignment is submitted.
Sometime between then and 10 pm- I showered, had a snack, brushed my teeth. I’m in bed.
11:00 PM- Definitely asleep by then.
Tuesday, 24-
6:45 AM- Get up, get ready
8:08 AM- The time I am set to leave in order to make it to class early so that I have enough time to print Jason’s assignment.
8:35 AM- My first print does not look right. I edit the stroke size and reprint. It is still too thin. But somehow, it is already close to 9, and I have to put up what I have.
9:00 AM- My designs are up. They look alright but I should have definitely gone for a thicker stroke.
9:10 AM- class, critique.
I did not keep track of my day during school.
2:00 PM- I stay after class to do some work. I receive concerning news from a friend and decide to call her. We talk for an hour or so.
3:00 PM- I did some work.. Not sure what. But I stayed for a reason.
4:15 PM- My boyfriend picks me up, and we go get spooky donuts from krispy kreme. Costco is right there so we each get us a hot dog as well.
6:00 PM- I come home.
6:15 PM- I made the mind map for Jill’s project.
6:45 PM- I start sketching the 30 ideas.
7:45 PM- I pick 3, and refine them a little bit.
8:30 PM- Knowing I have work tomorrow, and then the interactive the next day, I decide to do some coding for Erik’s class. It is a headache but I manage to get some things done.
9:30 PM- shower, snack, bed.
Wednesday, 25
6:45 AM- Alarm, wash my face, out of my pajamas.
7:15 AM- Breakfast
7:45 AM- I do my makeup
8:00 AM- I pack my lunch and some snacks.
8:20 AM- I walk to the light rail station.
8:50 AM- Arrive at school.
9:00 AM- Class begins.
*I did not keep track of my school day*
1:45 PM- left a little early so I have time to eat before heading to work after getting home from school.
2:15 PM- arrive home, grab a snack, eat some food, phone scroll
3:00 PM- Leave for work
9:00 PM- Off shift. Drive home full of bad feelings because I hate my job
9:20 PM- arrive home. Quick shower, snack.
9:45 PM- more website updates for interactive class.
10:45 PM- I’ve put in photos and changed type. There is something weird happening with the boxes that I cannot figure out. I go to bed.
Thursday, 26
6:45 AM- Wake up, wash my face, out of pajamas, get ready for school
8:00 AM- pack my lunch and everything else needed for school
8:20 AM- Leave to catch the light rail
8:40 AM- the train came early so I miss the first one. I accept my fate of being late to class
9:16 AM- Arrive class.
*I did not keep track of my school day*
1:50 PM- I stay after class to figure out some finances & schoolwork organization
3:00 PM – leave to go home
3:30 PM – arrive home. Headache as usual, so I lay down and take a short nap
4:30 PM – wake up. I think about what to make for dinner. I make dinner.
5:45 PM- eat dinner, clean up
Persisting headache- I cannot stand to look at a screen. I ultimately get no school work done today.
8 PM- bed