I’ve always been into art since I was a little kid. I wanted to be the best of the best but I doubted myself over the years especially when I was little. During the pandemic I wanted to expand my drawing skills by going into portrait realism drawings I was hesitant because I didn’t want to disappoint myself but I tried anyway. I always wanted to expand my genre of art I’m always inspired so I challenged myself to make something I didn’t think I could make. I wanted to draw a person who is meaningful to me by any means so I decided to illustrate one of my favorite artists SZA. I wanted to draw a scene from one of her music videos because I fell in love with the way the black and white looked in the video as well as resonating with the song. Through trial and error, I sketched out the image and was in the zone to the point where I didn’t know what time of day it was. I took a step back to look at my work and realized how proud I was of the outcome I was pleasantly surprised at how realistic it looked since I’ve never drawn anything with this kind of style. I don’t normally give myself credit for my work or give myself flowers because of the process and hours it took to make my art but taking a step back and taking it all in made me emotional on how I’ve evolved as an artist. It fulfilled my inner child from going through trial and error at a young age and the outcome of where I am now. Art is really about exploring, expression, and trying I used to think it’s all about perfection when it’s the process that brings out the beauty in it.
