So… this quarter has been rougher than the others for me. I’ve been getting less sleep and my job has been more stressful than usual. I spend almost all my time doing homework and traveling to and from school. I’m grateful for all the new skills I’m learning but I’m basically fried. Last Thursday my car broke down.
I’ve been taking the lightrail to school. I live in Greenwood and it’s about a 20 minute walk to the train station in Northgate. While it’s annoying to get up earlier and spend a longer time commuting, I’ve realized the walks- look I haven’t walked anywhere in months. Every morning I get some fresh air. I walk fast so I get sweaty. It feels good. It wakes me up. It gives me some time to think or not think.
Trees and plants are blooming. On my third day of walking to the station I noticed a massive floral tree showing off in the sun. I don’t know what kind of tree it is. The flowers have a gradient from bright magenta to a muted white. So when I noticed this tree I realized I hadn’t noticed it for the first two days I walked past it. I immediately thought of my partner and how she would stop mid-sentence to appreciate it’s presence. It made me reflect on the way I’ve been spending all my time in doors behind a computer screen. It made me grateful for the walk. I’m excited for the summer. I can practice the skills I’ve learned, actually sleep, and hopefully spend some time outdoors. Of course I’m stressed now and I have a million things to do, but I’m also looking forward to something. It makes it a little easier to accept the imperfections of the day. Anyway, I’m on the lightrail now with about four hours of sleep behind me,coffee and a spicy(bad idea at 6am)vegan sausage in my guts. A lot of unnatural world to start the day. I’ll see that tree on the way home.